Senin, 21 April 2014

A Love Letter for Dad

Daddy.....
its been a while i havent seen your face, holding your hands and fooling around with you.
I havent tell you that im wearing hijab now, for you :)
Once you said that i was really pretty in it, i keep that in mind.
Daddy, have you eaten? What are you doing up there? I really miss you, every night im just tightly hug ur pillow that you used on your funeral for the last time.
Every time i pray, hoping you get the best place beside Allah. Still remember the way you woke me up every morning, you rubbed my face with your hands that full of water. Half-awake, i said, "Don't push my eyes hard, you'll make them just smaller." and you laughed. Haha. Every morning just like that. You always said that english is important, in the future english will be needed. Thats true :| thanks to you. 
Remember the last time you able to walk. You really want some icy juice and i opposed you because it was for your sake dad. Its not good to drink an icy water for stroke sufferer. I promised you, i'll buy you some juice but no ice in it. And you nodded. That was the last thing i promised you and im sorry i cant fulfill it until you sleep forever. Actually, i have so many regretful things dad. Im sorry i cant be with you for the last time. You hold my hands weakly try saying, "dont go." with the gesture. If i knew, it was the last time you able to see me. I swear Dad, i want to turn the time back. They said "you have took a good care toward him, so there no thing to be regretted." They false dad. My mom and i are the most struggling with the lost. Enough for the sad story, dont wanna make you suffer up there bcs of my tears. Look dad! Im writting this letter fully in english. I dont care with the grammar. Just wanna make you proud. Hahaha. I know you love me by Allah guidance. Goodnight Dad. Love from your youngest daughter.

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